one of the reasons i play music and make art

i've got this as a patch .......... somewhere.
when i was a wee emo boy in catholic school i went to a lot of shows at the sitcom at 42nd and College ave. i was a bit of an outsider at shows since i was already smoking reds and never stopped eating meat... teen story aside, i was lucky enough one early summer evening to see Ordination of Aaron play the first show of a summer tour that would bring them back a month later for me to see again. i bought a 7" at the show and the A side was awesome. the B side, let me correct this, EVERY B SIDE had a number of jumps on it. apparently almost every 7" they sold that tour had a number of huge dips, making the second song almost unplayable, let alone ready for repeat listens.... the second time in town that summer someone shouted that their record was broken and sounded like shit (im pretty sure it was tony pontius or ben shine) to which the singer said they were all made that way but only maybe on purpose. two years later, in the scene, he couldve made a joke about kids shelling out bucks for busted shit that would be collectors items one day... thats another story from a time before selling out as an emo band didnt have any-fucking-thing about haircuts or tight jeans.

my point is that this band still to this day very much epitomizes what i think a cathartic show experience should be; guitar and drum parts you could probably play within a few minutes or hours of practice and a vocal part that you can try to sing along to but its really someone else's voice, their insides making the words you hear mean something to both you and them... and thats the big problem with post 90's emo; before it was connection of emotions but for the last 6-8 years its been about pussy and glam, razor blades and hair dye. no part in that thanks. but 15 years ago i saw this band and it kinda changed my life in the most subtle of ways. from the inside out.

thankfully i went to clean up my bookmarks and re-stumbled upon the sound of indie. posted was a song from the full length released that same summer (i had jason mager's copy forever, but he took it back)... its a record i would like to revisit but at the same time im sure the only way i could would be to snag the LP from someone who really loves it. in the mean time i will keep watching this video: OoA live at the sound of indie.